Sentimental For A Moment
Because I just saw my sister’s baby and it made me happy for her. She really has a cute baby even if the picture is from a 4d ultrasound. You can already tell how cute he is. Maybe her baby is the cutest baby boy in the family so far.. with his nose and lips and eyes… certified cutiepie. Hers is the cutest baby boy because I already have the cutest baby girl who si cheska. Hehehehe. I can’t wait to meet the newest addition to the family.
On another note, it made me feel sad for my lost baby. He should have been bigger now inside my tummy. Moving around and around inside my big tummy. It brought back feelings of sadness that I thought was buried deep deep inside my heart. I cant help the tears falling down my face. I still miss my baby brother. I love you still. You will always be with me, inside my heart. Your soul will forever be etched inside my soul.
Cheska still hasn’t grasped that I don’t have my baby anymore. She keeps on asking for him still. Just this morning, cheska placed her hand on my tummy asking for her baby brother. I told her he is no longer with us. She asked me who got her baby brother. I just told her the doctor got our baby brother and that she is still and will always be my baby. With that she remarked with, i’m no longer a baby.
I couldn’t even tell anybody about this even my husband because nobody seems to understand why. I know why. I have already accepted it. Its just that there are moments when I still miss him. Plus whenever I write feelings of bottled up sadness people tend to get sad with me. With that note, i am ending my entry.
